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razielimI still strongly love the idea of fandom, it's been such a lovely social circle, hobby, and creative outlet all rolled into one. But I can't deny that, despite my motivational post, I'm unexcited about the whole prospect of moving forward into decentralized fandom.
Not being able to reach all the people I want to reach in one single location means to me that a decoupling of my artist instincts and my fandom interests is absolutely vital to my happiness. Sounds easy, but I know it's not. Nothing convoluted that you tell yourself you should do or should feel is easy, and attacking it head on is always misguided.
What I will do is focus more on studying the things I'm interested in, enjoying growth and specialization that has nothing to do with outside validation. And entirely separate from that, I'll interact more with fandom as a hobby, letting my content creation take a whole-ass backseat. I can't forcefully separate my drives of creation into A and B but I can certainly sequester creation to just A until such day that it overflows into B from excess of love rather than compulsion to keep things the way they were before fandom as I knew it went belly-up.
So new art will probably go on Patreon only, where it'll be up used in lessons and tutorials.
New writing will come when it will, if at all, and it will hopefully come from a place of dicking around rather than taking myself seriously.
And I want to spend more time crawling through fic recs and Ao3 ship tags looking for human connections through stories.
Not being able to reach all the people I want to reach in one single location means to me that a decoupling of my artist instincts and my fandom interests is absolutely vital to my happiness. Sounds easy, but I know it's not. Nothing convoluted that you tell yourself you should do or should feel is easy, and attacking it head on is always misguided.
What I will do is focus more on studying the things I'm interested in, enjoying growth and specialization that has nothing to do with outside validation. And entirely separate from that, I'll interact more with fandom as a hobby, letting my content creation take a whole-ass backseat. I can't forcefully separate my drives of creation into A and B but I can certainly sequester creation to just A until such day that it overflows into B from excess of love rather than compulsion to keep things the way they were before fandom as I knew it went belly-up.
So new art will probably go on Patreon only, where it'll be up used in lessons and tutorials.
New writing will come when it will, if at all, and it will hopefully come from a place of dicking around rather than taking myself seriously.
And I want to spend more time crawling through fic recs and Ao3 ship tags looking for human connections through stories.
