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I don't follow game news because modern games are painfully disappointing to me more often than not. But I was going to buy myself DLC for another game on the Switch a while back and quite by accident discovered that the first three Tomb Raider games had been remastered and released in February! Phew, can't imagine my life if I'd missed something so exciting! I told my mom about it and we just about salivated at the idea of reliving all those wonderful memories again.

TR Memories! )

Remaster Thoughts! )
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Popping in to quickly archive some thoughts after relistening to Defiance. (Also, I quit tumblr. I'm going to be going through withdrawal for a while.) Anyway, the good stuff:

Okay, funny thing about the Defiance showdown where they're Shakespearean actor-ing at each other in the moments before Raziel rips out Kain's heart - not only did Kain not know where the Heart of Darkness had been all this time, which was a huge oversight on his part/impressive deception on Mortanius's part, but Kain also... didn't know? didn't plan for? overlooked? was distracted from? ...the lack of a temporal distortion.

There AREN'T two Reavers in that time and place - there is ONE wraith blade Soul Reaver attached to Raziel's soul, yes, BUT. Kain holds the sword that is still the BLOOD Reaver, the one he ripped out of Raziel's body before it could absorb Raziel's soul.

Meanwhile, the imbued second Soul Reaver that COULD have derailed the course of history as it was currently written lies either really close but not nearly close enough, somewhere within the very same cathedral in which they're yelling at each other, OR young!Kain has already only just retrieved it and carried it many miles away to the pillars or to Willendorf (or perhaps even 50 years into the past.)

Without the temporal distortion of TWO Soul Reavers in close proximity, Kain literally CANNOT convince Raziel to not rip his heart out bc in THIS time stream, it IS inevitable.

Outmaneuvered by the Elder God and his convenient little portal even as he recognized the so-called "Oracle" as likely deceitful. WHY Kain didn't notice that there was only one sword present... I don't know. Interesting. Because in SR2 Kain definitely demonstrated awareness of how paradoxes work. It seems he's put too much faith in Raziel's "free will," which, I don't know if it needs to be pointed out to Kain, isn't without serious limits.

Moebius for his part, when Raziel next encounters him, also maintains the lie, that Raziel actually had a choice in that moment, and actively CHOSE to kill Kain. Raziel didn't. That moment was predestined and inescapable. Only one Reaver present.

To what end? At first I thought Moebius just hated Kain so much that it gratified him to believe that Raziel had a choice and CHOSE to kill Kain. Then I remembered who the hell I was thinking about. Moebius, liar extraordinaire. But why? Why bother, if Kain's already dead? I suppose to keep Raziel on his course. Like he's going to play one last - ahhhhhh! Yea. With MOaebius's goad ringing in his head, Raziel will now hurry to play "his" card - revive Janos Austin so that with Vorador's impending execution, the vampires don't go extinct. This of course, is in actuality the next step in the Hylden's plans. Not that Moebius has any loyalty to the Hylden, but they're useful enough.
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Have you ever dreamed you could fly? That you could up and just climb a fucking building, no sweat? Could run on all fours and pass cars on the road, moving in an easy springing rhythm, your whole body enjoying the movements involved? And then woken up with that same feeling of lightness, freedom, and possibility, only to have it gradually dawn on you that, as easy as it might still seem to simply push off and be free of mundane physics, now that you’re awake, you have to get around while firmly rooted to the earth?

Now that’s immersion. That’s cool.

I think the coolest games in the world are the ones which stick with you after, games which are a fantasy for the body as much as the mind, games whose weightless possibility is craved viscerally.

I see “immersion” as early Assassin’s Creed, early Tomb Raider. Spyro, even. Games that don’t break evenly between “Here you will fight, and there you will use your movement set to get around.” Games that break your head, and as you move about the real world, get you to think, “Hey look at that ledge! I bet I could leap to it!” before remembering that in the waking world, your body is neither that light nor that strong. Games that allow you to cover so much ground in one smooth sprint that you’re left feeling you have all of real Venice memorized.

Putting these games down is like waking from a weightless dream.

You don’t need high-res details for immersion. A general suggestion of the environment is all you ever get in dreams and yet that’s powerful enough for piercing nostalgia when back in the waking world. The first Tomb Raider was able to deliver fantastical settings never before seen all with one-size-fits-all basic building blocks and, I don’t know if you remember this, but upright 2D representations of items. I still have TR1-related brain damage to this day - noticing game-typical platforms out in the real world which I would climb if I could only live by dream-physics. More than twenty years later, I still think back to TR1′s locations, down to individual rooms, and feel intensely curious about them in a way I don’t feel about the locations in TR: Anniversary. The details TR1 devs could include with the technology of the time had atmosphere and character, and that’s what mattered in the end.

You don’t need realistic physics and proportion for immersion. Limiting jump height and run speed while stretching out maps doesn’t make the game more captivating to the imagination. In fact, it dulls the ability to feel the game’s physics in the body. What difference does it make to me if I’m dreaming or awake if the physics are the same in both? You can wake up, shrug off the dream, shrug off the game, and go about your day without the body pulling you to stay in bed a little longer, feel a little lighter, fly a little higher. The body has its own appetites and it craves good stretches and ease of movement. Making characters slower, heavier, more down-to-earth doesn’t create something in which I want to be immersed. If the body can’t feel the threshold of difference between life physics and game physics, it can’t feel the game. The game exists only in the mind and not the body. Dream-games introduce you to new physics, laws which are delightful to the imagination of your muscles and bones, all while making so much sense, logically and viscerally all over the body, that you can’t help but wonder when you wake, “Well, why can’t it be real?”

In these dream-games, you use your fantastical and wonderful movements everywhere always. There isn’t fantasy happening as a spectacle on the stage around you while limiting you in your ability to participate in the fantastical with your given avatar. It’s an ailment if a game forces you to watch fantasy but doesn’t allow you to be fantasy, and it should be diagnosed as such. Immersion in dream-games means being part of the fabric of the fantastic. The fantastic world around you exists because you are fantastic and moving through it in a fantastic manner. You’re on the stage, watching yourself participate in magic, and flight, and lightness, and freedom.

Immersion is a quality of being dream-like, and as such, owes its very existence to viewing the creeping ingress of the waking world into games with suspicion and hostility.

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Good morning. Rather than sleeping in to recover sleeps lost to Blood Omen madness last night, I am here with the further realization that Kain’s choice at the pillars, to not sacrifice himself, had also been set in stone from the moment of the creation of Timeline 1. (Or at least, this choice was confirmed and not rerouted to anything else at the moment of his assassination of King William the Just.) The whole series frames that choice specifically as a choice because of how Kain talks about the weight and guilt of it, he even calls it a choice during narration, but we know and Kain knows, intellectually if not emotionally, that free will is an illusion.

There was only one Soul Reaver present at the time of his “choice,” therefore he could not have rerouted history with any amount of willpower, not that he really wanted to kill himself. And even more fun to think about - he did not sufficiently consider the option of killing himself precisely because there was no second Soul Reaver present. He could not seriously fathom doing what was never an option.

Here we go again... )

why is this so long

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Wait wait wait wait, I literally cannot believe I’m asking this question for the first time in my life, but I was listening to the SR2 dialogue before bed, as you do, and it just fucking hit me -

If the Pillar Guardians relinquish their role as guardian at the moment of their death, as we saw happen when Ariel was murdered and Kain immediately inherited the role as a baby, then why did Kain retain guardianship when he was murdered? Like you could say that Ariel was left to natural forces when she died while Mortanius had basically god-like powers over Death with which he pulled Kain back from death and he might have restored Kain to guardianship at that same time, but Mortanius wasn’t the one who killed him or even present when Kain was killed. Kain literally woke up in a crypt when he was resurrected and has memories of an afterlife, so more than sufficient time had elapsed between his death and reanimation for a new Balance guardian to be born.

Oh boy... )

I FUCKING HATE THIS SERIES.

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I wanted to talk a little bit about the thinking behind that Under Jealous Eyes painting, and how you’ll notice that only Raziel’s brothers are paying any attention to him, while the rest of the vampires who are privileged enough to be present in this lounge are obliviously laughing, flirting, debating, and otherwise living their own lives.

I can only assume that being envious of Raziel was a form of brain damage limited exclusively to his brothers. (Some of them, anyway. Dumah’s never been envious of anyone ever, which is why he isn’t pictured and we are actually observing the whole scene from his detached point of view.)

It would be a mistake to assume that the whole nation was going around seething with jealousy towards him. They might have picked up on some general Anti-Raziel sentiments that might have stemmed from their clan’s head, some stereotypes and go-to insults to fling at their Razielim rivals, as a matter of tribal pride and culture, but otherwise, it would have been way above their station to carry any real animosity towards him, you feel?

It makes sense for Zephon or Turel to fantasize about murdering Raziel and finally being the most beloved, the most favored. But the average son-of-son-of-son-of-son-of-son-of-son-of-son-of-son-of-Rahab is at most going to be looking at becoming Rahab’s most esteemed descendant, and even that would be a particularly wild fantasy. His more immediate resentments and acts of subterfuge are going to be lower than even that. Imagining becoming Kain’s favorite would be some embarrassing OP Mary Sue fantasy he’d never acknowledge having ever dreamed of.

Sure, the average vampire’s going to have all the same petty drama and backstabbing as Kain’s sons, it’s literally a case of “as above, so below,” but it’s going to look so insignificant from up high, whereas the resentment that Raziel’s siblings have for him is always going to look so monumental and holy from down below. The lieutenant’s immediate and most trusted children might feel they have a horse in that race, supporting and aiding their fathers in their competitive initiatives, imagining that they would get recognition for their role in ousting Raziel, but the rest of the empire?

It’s just unfathomable to the average vampire to feel envious of Kain’s favorite. Raziel’s very role as the first, most loved and most hated, is going to look divine and untouchable from even a couple steps down the family free. The aggression among Kain’s sons is to them less a social phenomenon and more the preordained motion of celestial bodies. All they can do is recognize godliness in the events of the heavens and, when the gods are having one of their earth-shaking conflicts, pray to stay out of the fray.

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